Hey all,
SO I don't know if you have noticed all the new links and such that I have put up a lately but I do encourage you to check some of them out :)
One of the neat websites that I came across was the
Crossed-Eyes Blog and Webzine which is just full of amazing articles written by young people for young people about the Lord and becoming more like Him. On there was an article entitled
"Two Different Love Stories" which was about relationships primarily from a guys perspective.
Because it was primarily for a guy
Lauren wrote a 2nd part to it entitled
"Look No Hands" which is about relationships from a girls perspective.
As a girl (:-p) It was so neat to be reminded to not only wait for my future-husband-to-be but to also guard my heart jealously for him. Not only to be pure physically but EMOTIONALLY (which is something that I think most girls really struggle with).
SO besides that the Lord has been teaching me some really interesting lessons this past week.
Modesty has been a huge one. You may notice all the new links on my sidebar addressing modesty-Girls I encourage you to go check them out! I think that the most important truth I have been learning about modesty this week is that it is not about a list of rules and regulations but it is about an attitude of the heart. It is about wanting to honor Christ 1st and foremost but it is also about helping our brothers to guard their eyes. Because of that I first had a long talk with the Lord and then we went through my closet. It was definately a time of heart searching and re-evaluating.
A few years ago I had made the decision to wear skirts and skirts only (except when I absolutely HAD to wear pants for decencies sake!). The sad part was that I thought that in order to be modest meant that I had to be as plain as possible and frumpish. That lasted about a year and then I left it all behind me and did not go near skirts for about two years.
This past weekend I felt the Lord again encouraging me to wear primarily skirts again. But, there were some changes in my attitude. I realized that in order to be modest and feminine DID NOT mean that I had to make myself as plain as possible. In fact, now that I have been striving to honor God in my dress I look more like a young lady (hair and make-up done, dressed tastefully not my normal grungy look :-p) than I ever did before!
Do I believe that it is wrong to wear pants sometimes? Absolutely not! I have realized that is not about what I am or what I am not going to wear. It is about an attitude of the heart. That is where it all stems from! From wanting to honor and glorify Jesus in that area of my life.
So yes there are new links up on modesty and Girls I would urge you to check them out...they have some really really neat stuff in them!
"I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait"
THat is from the song "While I am Waiting" by John Waller (scroll to the bottom of my page if you want to listen to it in my player).
This weekend I have realized how painful it truly can be to wait on the Lord. Loneliness, jealousy, wondering when it will be my turn-these were all emotions that ran through my heart this past weekends at one time or another. I was empty and I came before the LOrd and begged Him to fill me. It was at that moment that He showed me something.
All my life I have looked for my completeness in what others thought of me. My worth as a person was measured in how well I was liked and what other people thought about/told me. THIS WEEKEND I FINALLY REALIZED HOW WRONG THAT IS!
I had been looking for completeness/something to fill the void in my life in a guy, friends, family, ministry oppurtunities, you name it I looked there.
Christ was the love of my life (or so I thought) but He was not the complete and total center and source of my life. He showed me that HE was the only person/thing that could ever ever ever complete me and fill the void that I had been trying to fill so long in my life.
When I realized that...I cannot even explain the joy that just...radiated through my being. It was as though I had REALLY began to live. Do I still struggle? YES! Is it still lonely sometimes? YES! Is Jesus worth it? YES A HUNDRED TIMES OVER!
SO how about you? Have you been trying to fill you life with everything but the One that is the ONLY one that can truly satisfy? Just thought I would give ya'll something to think about :)
So I have not posted pictures in awhile so here are some from a few weekends ago when Jac, Laura, Andrew and Sean came over to our house. We went outside and FROZE (seriously it was like ---------0 out)! But we did manage to get some really cute pics :)
These were all taken by Andrew (as he loves to remind me :-p) and they are us girls. We have adopted two new sisters if you haven't noticed :)
Left to Right:
Abby,
Laura,
Me,
Jac,
Jen.
Left to Right:
Laura,
Me,
Jac.
(We were not
exactly ready for
this picture can you
tell? :-p)
And Me
and Jac :)
I am off to go and
make Valentines Day
cookies with the
Kindergarden and First
Grade class at CCA with Abby and Tammy. Blessings to you all and have a wonderful day :)
