My last Sunday as a 17 year old

Hey all you bloggers out there!



I tried to capture my utter misery...well, ok, so I am not that misrable :p No, I have been sick and I thought that I was over it but then I decided to go on a night swim at Jamie's party...and now I am sick again! I couldn't even sit through church
:( I slept for like 6 hours this afternoon but I am still feeling shaky (fever, throat, blah, blah, blah) so I thought that I would post early and then get some more sleep!


So, this evening we had some visiters at church. From HOLLAND! They were 4 college guys who had never been to America so they decided to go on a tour. Anyway, they are Christians and they were very nice guys...Grandpa Kelley bought Pizza and icecream. It was so much fun :) I went with Grandpa to get the pizzas and that was nice to get some one-on-one time with him. I love my Grandpa :) We talked about trusting the Lord...it was refreshing!

This morning I woke up early and decided to go over to the "upper room" in the Church to spend some time with the Lord. Lately has been hard for me just because I have...been lonely. Alot of my friends are busy and so, as a result, my life has started to largely revolve around email, blogging, etc to keep in contact with alot of my friends. Anyway! I have really been struggling with loneliness as I said before and this morning I decided that I needed to not be on the computor as much. Um, I decided that there was other stuff that I could do (spend time with the Lord, spend time with family, etc...) so I have decided to try to be online at night mostly...anyway, so this morning after I had been praying and stuff I "just happened" to read a day-by-day devotional Grandma and Grandpa Kelley had gotten me for my 16th birthday. I thought I would share it with you all:

"The Price of the Vision"
"In the year that King Uzziah died, I saw the Lord..." ~Isiah 6:1

"Over and over again God has to remove our friends to put Himself in their place. Your priorities must be God FIRST, God SECOND, and God THIRD, until your life is continually face to face with God and no one else is taken into account whatsoever. Your prayer will the be, 'In all the world there is no one but You, dear God.' Keep paying the price. Let God see that you are willing to live up to the vision."

I found that incredibly "ironic" especially because of the stuff that I had been going through lately. God is so good and I truly want Him 1st, 2nd, and 3rd. Lately it hasn't been that way...but no more.

Is that the desire of your hearts? To have HIM be everything to you? It is wierd. Total trust and surrender to Christ isn't a one time thing. It is sometimes a daily struggle to give our wants and desires to Him. The neat thing is that while we just see the here and now, He sees past, present, and future...anyway, I don't know if any of that made any sense!

I am off to bed. Blessings to you all :)